SOLILOQUY*


Time flies like a wind. Three years a go, i innocently wore toga for graduation. Yes, a-4 year undergraduate program in University of Indonesia was successfully accomplished. Being one of cumlaude student from Faculty of Public Health majoring in Food Science. No more happiness for me and my big family actually. While many newly graduated scholars kept in euphoria, then me as usual had to struggle more, how could i join the graduation ceremony? It was also need some payment and administration. Again, I jumped myself to new beginning experience as fresh graduate, i applied to some freelance jobs just for earning money for graduation payment and all stuffs tied to ceremony. Then, i got a lucky chance to had part-time job in academic department in my faculty. Not bad, at least, I had a chance to share my happiness to my close family.

Balairung, Depok UI (2011)

Balairung, Depok UI (2011)

On that day, a sunny one with bit winds flew softly, my core family came together to my university for attending the graduation. Dont assume that my core family just my parents, sisters—in our dictionary, our core family is also involved my grandma, my uncle and his sons. Kinda adorable day! A car full with family member and also hearts full with gratefulness. Somehow, i also can not believe that Allah gave me such uncountable blessing. Could you imagine, how could a girl from poor family get a golden turn to study in best University in Indonesia? My days were rough days, how many days left by no money on my pocket even just for public trasportation cost from my home to faculty or the adverse. How many times I should control myself not to expend money for “high price” lunch and prefer to chewing a crumb of cheap cake? Yes, it’s actually not healthy enough for me, but i had no choice. Above all, there were bunch of marvels happened in my life. I got my diploma as university student. My parents’s smile and pride is more than the universe. Alhamdulillah.

Then again, time flies like a wind—so smooth, and without your awareness—Puff! Time brings you easily to future or your past. 2 September 2014, the same event but different actors was occured. I could not be happy than this, my first sister’s graduation! My family, again, fused into unspeakable contentment.

Passion and persistence is the key of her successfulness. She loves math, then after two years got rejected from STAN, she then found herself into better dream. She wants to be a scientist and teacher. Jakarta State University brings her to her dream. This year, she has completed a-4 year education in Mathematics and Science Faculty majoring in Chemistry Education. For me, as the older sister, she actually accomplished not only her academic stage but also the maturitic phase. She becomes more and more tough and persistance, more than me somehow.

Sometimes, i feel so cruel, leaving my home two years ago and pursuing my own dream to study abroad, then remaining my family behind. But, i know, God is never sleep—keeps my lil sisters more than I can do as the oldest one. Now, I can see directly, she grows as mature lady and also wise sister for our big family.

PRJ, Jakarta (2014)

PRJ, Jakarta (2014)

It’s never enough to celebrate and congrate her, but holding her hand (virtually), praying for her step after campus life, for me, is pretty enough. I trust her, one day, she will be one of great teacher and young scientist more than me. Even thousand miles issolated in remote country from homeland, I feel your happiness, and our parent pride’s too. Keep on moving Aisyah Miftah Hasanah, S.Pd. I am kindly waiting for Aminah to become bachelor of humaniora (S.Hum) and also Mutia, may be, she would be a doctor/dentist/or engineer? Why not? 😀

*an utterance or discourse by a person who is talking to himself or herself or is disregardful of or oblivious to any hearers present